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yay , today early dismiss for detention :D .

mr ong say mr tan treating every teacher for lunch uh .. so good .
hais no students sia.

hmm ..

today never bring thermometer -.- zzz ...

so .. gave 5dollars for thermometer to miss lee and 5dollars class fund also .
wtf la .. today no money eat -.-
lucky gt ytd de leftovers money hahas .

hmm .. after detention went slack with elaine meryl and co-s .

thats all bahs .

hmm ...

after that. talked to meryl and yy about something bahs .
me and elaine tried to talk to them.
hope they will listen uh =) .

hmm .. thats all bahs .

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phew .. back from hell of a day today -.- .

super stress this few days .

today detention chiong alot of work .
hais .

MYE and N level coming le .
need bulk up x.x

hmm .. short post bah today .
kinda tired .

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hmm .. today rules :D .

get back maths and Chinese oral marks .

shall not say it -.-
kinda sux .

eng went to Dream studio , thx to mdm j for the eng worksheets .:D

chinese did not do much though ..
miss tan come in tell us the oral marks then times up liaos
1period only ma .

pe played volleyball x.x
phy jie say i improve le.
finally the ball can fly to them .
lol .

then .. yay today rained <3 .
sitting outside the general office finally nt so warm le :D

hmm .. thats all bahs .
went home around 5.30+ .

ate prata house with mom and faith sis .
:D .

thats all bahs .
made mei and kor with amanda =) . :D

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hais .. wonder wads wrong with the weather this few days .
super hot sia .
cant tahan eh .

hmm .. been playing SA with dinie and ariffin .
kinda nice .
but i keep die le .
hahas .

speaking about weather .
today at the detention ho ..
super hot la.
the weather .
if only the wall have fan .
hais then shoik liaos .
detention gt fan :D
mr ong say DREAM ON LA !
sian la .

my back all sweat sia .
wet wet de .

today i recieved a flacon kick from elaine on my You-Know-What -.-
super cold suddenly .

hmm ... thats all bahs
did maths worksheet, thanks to my tuition teacher.
she personally hand-written just for me .
thx alot <3

thats all bahs .

i still treat u as my gs.
no matter wad .

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ahh .. every week , sunday seems to be the boring day ever -.-
no tv show .
no entertainment.
no nth hais .

hmm .. woke up around 11am + today.
bath ,
eat .

get ready for tuition at 1pm.
but teacher late.
so .. around 1.30 + start bahs.

requested alot of worksheet to last me till 5th may.

cause sitting at general for hell is super bored de lo -.-
hmm ..
gotten around 20sheets , maths somemore :D
hope get buck up my maths bah.

tmr be requesting alot of eng worksheets from mdm j too .

hmm ..

loves 25th <3 !
=)

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something seriously wrong with me this few days .

after the talking with mr ong and mdm tong .

i totally broke down .

last few days at CPA lesson .

i scolded mdm yau ,

cause my classmate was making alot of noise ..

then .. the girls go in, the boys remained outside.

i not happy with the arrangement

flared on mdm yau lo ...

hais ..

WAD THE FUCK WRONG WITH ME THS FEW DAYS .

after reading faith sis blog .
i realise wad i have done .
its not that u don understand me well..
its that i don know how to communicate with you .
yea , we might be like friends rather then siblings.
but i really love u all alot .
its just that i don know how to go appreciate wad u all have done for me .

when i told mom i will change ,
she replied me 'Are You Sure?' in some tone like don believe me.
i totally was like sian.
how u expect me to change when u don even believe in me in the first place?
wad u expect me to do ?

when i change, u don believe
when i try my best , u say try harder.
when i try even harder, u say its not enough.
i really don know wad to do .

after talking to mom about certain issues ..
i feel that i will change.
but how long i not sure.
and i cant promise how long i need .
hais ..

theres alot of things i need to decide .
and ... i really cant take it .

i know i should not be saying this but ..
i really feel my HOME .. is a place for me to eat, sleep , bath .
ytd my friend said he very envious about me,
he said i have everything and anything i want.
but he's wrong ..

i might appear i have alot of things .
but actually .. i don have anything .
hais ..

yea . i know mom ,dad , faith and amy sis cares for me ,
i can feel it too .
but all i really wan is .
a family that can sit tgt and eat .
we might have do this before.
and i know u all are busy .
busy with work and to support the family .
but i really wan is all of us laughter .
not like pop, who always watch his dvd during dinner.

i know it bahs ..
but im really sorry for wad i did .
i will change .

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hmm .. woke up around 11am + -.- super tired.

then .. went out find yy . slack with her.

went meryl house awhile .
she cant go out -.-
bored.
so slept awhile .

hmm ...
around 4pm + went back home bahs .

mom and pop called me .
i really look like their prisoner -.-

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hmm . . been feeling very sick this few days .

happy bdae to yg !
happy bdae to diana !
happy bdae carrie ! .

MAY U 3 BDAE BOYS AND GIRL ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRU !

hais .

cough , sore troat , wet nose .. hais -.-

thanks to my friends around me ,
for the concern . :D

some bought tissue for me.
some bought medicine for me.
some bought drinks and food for me .
thanks guys
love u guys <3

hmm .. after sch stayed back till 4.30 lo ..

with agnes , weihong , weixiang .

then went for chinese oral .
cant read -.-

recess helped yy and jiawen buy blue files =) .
hahas .

hmm .. then thats all bahs.
lucky the detention ends at 5th may,
untill N lvl over i gonna die -.-

im trying to quit .

today whole day never liaos .
cant take it,
but can try bahs .
thx to <33 which i don know who for the jiayou =) .

thx

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hmm .. today kinda sux alright .

after sch went slack at blk 216 , to wait for my friend .

saw elaine and 1 of her friend at there,
weixiang n nicholas at there also .
so slack tgt lo ...

hmm .. then after awhile , chatting halfway ,
mr ong come , not sure why but kana caught for smoking .
hakim and weihong kana caught also .

then usual lo .
spot check .
check bag.

go back school . mr ong slowly ask who wan admit .
at first nobody admit lo .

then mr ong call me go in his office ,
i admit lo .

informed parents.
now need stay back after school ..

12.45pm report to general office.
4.30 earliest to go home
latest 6pm .
hais ..

hmm ..

not sure wad gg happen to me bahs .
now i cant get 1 mth allowances le bahs .
now return back to basic 7dollars .

certain answer i cant answer .
sorry =)

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hmm .. gg make a short post .

not feeling well this few days ..

flu bahs .

hmm ..

been feeling very sick this few days .

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hmm .. in rush of time :D .
short post .

eng : did practice for N lvl .

maths : never do anything

sci : 1 period . revise for N lvl too.

PE : teacher never come .

hmm .. after sch went back home awhile .
then slack , hmm .. not sure bahs .

thats all , rush of time !! BYE

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yo :D

while waitin for faith sis come out frm toilet,
blog first bahs :D.
tmr gt 2.4 -.- jialat la .

hmm .. today ah ,
late start monday .
almost late .
missed bus , cause alot ppl .

then me and gwen share money take taxi to sch lo . :D

hahas .

then .. maths first 2 period -.- super bored .
slept for 1 period .

eng : mdm j never come lo .. on course .
did worksheet hahas :D .

chi : never do anything -.- .

hmm .. after sch went slack with weihong awhile .
then went hme with jordan .
going somewhere else with him later .

meet up with jiawen , meryl and yy .

slack at there awhile .
then around 7pm + go home ler bahs .

my butt pain gettin from bad to worst -.-
super pain la .

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woo .. enjoyed my dae today =) hahas .

meet up with elaine at amk cc .. then saw adrian and some of his friend lo ..

chat with him awhile .

then . went 222 meet up with joan .
slack at there .
jordan come with his cousin awhile .
then go play bball liaos .

hmm .. then me , elaine and joan went meet with some friends .
thats all bahs.

then tgt go bishan park , play pool .
slack at there.
played photo hunt.

after that, teresa and some her friends come also .

hmm .. slack at there till around 9pm +

then went slack with some of friends lo ..

around 10pm+ reach home bahs.
kinda tired
lucky tmr late start monday :D <3

thats all bahs .
sleeping time :D

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hey yo :D

hmm .. today kinda enjoyable day
saw 2 of my ex primary mates :D hahas.

ate mac with faith sis, sy kor, and mom .

quarreled with faith sis lo. then never talk through out .

around 3pm + elaine ask me go out , ok lo .
was waiting for 265 , the hell long bus,
1 bus around 15mins +
then wait halfway ,
gt ppl call my name lo.
Doris :D , my ex sch mate lo,
she changed alot sia hahas ,
chat chat .

=)

after that went 218 find elaine and friends lo .
saw Mei Shi also :D
ex sch mates.

nice la hahas .

hmm ..
slack till around 8pm+ .
saw jestor,kenny, yongtze , klein and 1 guy , not sure his name .

thats all bahs.

ate dinner with mom ,
cookie cut-ed her hair :D
kinda nicer then pervious de.
plus shes kinda neat now ,
hahas <3

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hais .. bored this few days -.-

nth to do uh ..

x.x

today took NAFA 5 items.

first was the chin-pull up .
only manage do 1 -.-
no strength

shuttle run <3.
first try 10.3 secs -.-
second try 10secs hehe .

then .. sit up 43 i think .

sit and reach , 51 . :D

hmm .. standing board jump didnt manage to do,
not feeling that well .

sciences never do anything bahs.
miss lee give worksheet and let the class do lo .
but then i not feeling well ma.
so she let me rest =) .
thx miss lee .

thats all bahs .
tmr weekends .
bored -.-

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hmm ...

today early in the morning paiseh liaos hais ...

went find mr ong for hair check.

then he push my hair down.
zzz
super paiseh la ..

then .. miss lee call me go for 1on1 interaction =)

hmm ...

chat chat lo .

then .. watch dvd .
Ron Clark, is the title.
the DVD is base on true story de ..

hmm .. its really very good.
motivates too

10/10 <3 hahas ..

thats all bahs
was home early today

hais .. need sign in sign out -.-

hais ... sleeping time !

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hmm .. .

changed blogskins and music <3

hahas .

kinda like this better

hahas.

but also like the previous de .

hmm ..
previous de kinda messy ..
so ...
changed new de.

hope this is much better !

cheer up elaine and phy jie <3 =)

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hmm ... kinda bored day .

was home around 3pm +
thx amy sis for helping me buy lunch =) and bubble tea .

after lunch .. went find jordan at amk cc lo ..

then .. was kinda crazy there.
fun also.

hahas .

hmm ... thats all bahs .

kinda shag this few days .

nth to do de
and bored..

slowly .. i feeling kinda drifting away

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hais .. today kinda sux -.-

cut-ed my hair today .
no fringe liaos zzz ....

thn .. went 215 sit with some friends lo ..
scarly mr ong come.
check my bag.
and gone case ler.

for those who know wad i mean .. u know that bahs .

don know wad will happen lo ..
hais .

but then everyday must report to mr ong for some checks .
and check bag too .

hais -.-

sianded -.-

thats all bahs.

cut hair liaos.
no FRINGE

been watching Mind Your Language :D
super funny show.
love it <3

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todays just another boring day -.-
happy 6mths gs ! <3

cheer up phy jie =)
was rude to mr tan -.-

so .. went to general office lo ..

think kana demerit . 6 -.-
open defiance and using of vulgarities .

hmm .. thats all bahs .
kinda boring this few days -.-

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finally able to use the internet -.-

the network got some problem i think

woke up around 11am +
super shag this few days.
slept last night at 9+ i think .

hmm ..

today went play badminton with faith and amy sis,
sy and ben kor .
and lady boss , mom .
hmm thats all bah ..

ate dinner with them all.

tmr late start monday =)

<333 13th !

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went out with yg for the whole day .

then meet up with chun ji , yg and klien .
went amk cc play bball .

hmm .. never play lo .
too bright.
the rays hurtin my eye -.-

after that .. went 215 for lunch ,
cause klien and chun ji haven eat ma.
then see them eat like hungry,
order my food also -.-

saw elaine =) .
then she walk away liaos .

hmm ...
thats all bahs .

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hmm .. went 215 slack with yong-guang ..

then ...

saw elaine and her friend =)
chat with them awhile .
yg gt some problem lo ..
so ..
takecare bro .

hmm .. then went out with him .
slack till 9pm+

hahas .
tmr mayb going out .

its ok gs .
wadever ppl say ,
im on your side .
wadever it is .
ily <3 .

wth .. i really feel so useless ..
even an ant also gt feelings
i don know the answer .. hais .

my first ganjie so sad . and i cant do anything for her.
FEEL SO FCKING USELESS .
takecare kays .
u my first gan jie.
i don care wad happen
im still your di .

im so disappointed in you .

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woot ! :D

posting for gs <3 =)

Okay, I'm outta here. Ganstead ! <3

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im not going JB tmr ler T.T
pop don let -.-

hmm ..

laughed alot since 9pm till now hahas x.x
super funny eh the show :D

chatted with gs on msn <3 =)
LOVES !

then ... just now wanted to relax on the bed watch tv de
on the way to bed then tv ad zz -.-

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hmm .. never go npcc today.

sec3s taking over ler.

mayb going find jestor later. hais .bored eh

tmr gd friday .

mayb going msia find dongdong :D

thats all bah .

IM SO GOD DAMN STUPID LE !

FINALLY SEE YOUR TRUE COLOURS.

I CANT BELIEVE IT.

HE DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO TREASURE U !

jie, im here for you,

you have your friends to care for you.

takecare

i don care wad he going to do to me.

cause you're my first gan jie ! <3

i love gs <3

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hmm .. never go npcc today.
sec3s taking over ler.

mayb going find jestor later. hais .bored eh

tmr gd friday .
mayb going msia find dongdong :D

thats all bah .

i love gs <3

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hmm ...

i just cant stand it.
i think its the end bah .

hmm

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was home early today :D

hmm ..

ms tan never come to sch again ! :D yahoo .. means chinese SSRP :D

eng : went for health check . passed backbone but failed eyesight -.-
tmr 8am need go check again .

maths : slept thru out x.x super tired.

chi : used the SSRP to sleep

IAP : music , SLEEP ALSO -.-

thats all bah .. today totally SLEEP day .

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omg T.T gs is sick . hais ..

takecare okay ! <33 =) ily .

right . today sch totally sux -.-

but gt SSRP.
chinese !! YAY <3
played monopoly with angeline, sherlyn and sufen.
super funny la .
laugh till very stomach pain sia
super funny

then .. maths did nth =.=

eng : only attend like 15mins .
was late for class.

hmm .. after sch went 215 find jordan and tiansong , but then think gt abit problem with ts -.-
he ran away.

after that went back sch for some npcc briefing
gt 1 fraggot from sec 2/5 say NORMAL TECH stupid -.- wtf sia . _l_
zz , shi an is the name -.-

after that went play bball with ts and jordan, rain eh siao . how play
but they still play , speechless sia. powerful le -.- those 2 .

then .. yong guang call me ask go 215 awhile.

helped miss mullie buy thing lo ..

went home around 6pm +

tats all

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todays dinner really great =)
delicious hahas..

hmm .. promised somethings. =)

sour prawn x.x

abit too sour .

hahs .

hmm ..

theres some miracle happen halfway tru though .

gt 1 black sauce heart shape :D

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nth to post.

boring sun x.x

think today no badminton again .

faith sis says sy kor coming back late.
bathing cookie later,
not sure gt time anot.
amy sis cooking dinner today o.o

lol

u don understand whats wrong with me,

so don say u hate me .

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wtf -.-
spented like 15mins to post 1 post =.=
and fixing the alignment .
made me so pek chek sia . kns ..
now my post like very messy eh

kay nvm

today went goodspeed with jestor , yongtze and kenny.
at first i thought i late de -.-
the way jestor sms me like i super late that kind .
like they all waitin for me very long already

so i rush lo .. bath and ran go goodspeed .
then .. kns , reach there ler, HUH ? nobody there,
called jestor ask him where you ,
he say he still on the way -.-
wth .. so waited for them for like 30mins ?
played audition BU ( beat up ) =)
they all play life4dead lo

saw ariffin , zheng xun ,matin and dinie =)
so nice sia .

yong guang call me lo .
meet up with him then the whole of us go sch tgt .

then .. around 4pm + stop playing ler
went school play soccer match :D
played with the 'ah pek' , according to jestor =.=
saw hakim and some B division boys .

won the match =) .
3-2 hahas .

but then injured my leg .
the skin peel off .
my friend say i like snake sia.
keep 'shed' skin -.=

then .. around 9pm + meet kenny with jestor.
eat dinner then go home lo .
hmm .. thats all bahs

u just don understand how i feel.
sorry for being rude to u ,
but i just cant take it,
i don feel like telling u and theres no point telling u.
'haha' understand me more then the whole lot of u add tgt .

i fucking hate SEC4 lifes =.=
but trust me,
im the worst fucking bastard in the whole life .

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tagged by ariffin to do this quiz =)

1.Bsides ur lips,where is e place u lyk to b kissed?

~> cheek ba.

2.How do u feel when u woke up tis morn?

~> sleepy, like haven wake up

3.Who was e last person u took a pic wif?

~> my mei

4. Would u consider to b spoiled?

~> no =.=

5.Would u ever donate blood?

~> hmm think so .

6.Do u haf a gd fren of e opp sex?

~> yea, and shes my first gan-jie ! <3

7.Do u wan someone dead?

~> i think so _l_

8.Wat r u thinkin of rite now?

~> that fking teacher . _l_

9.Do u wish someone was bside u now?

~> no

10.When did u go to sleep last nite?

~> think 10pm +

11.Where did u buy ur shirt u r wearing rite now?

~> not sure, bdae present

12.Is someone on ur mind rite now?

~> no

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back frm npcc x.x
hmm .. kinda feel sick, just vommited . haiyo zzz ...

eng : did some worksheets. 35/45 =)

maths : did new topic , but then no mood and cant concentrate.

sci : 2 periods =.= wadda ... hmm . went toilet for like 10mins , stomach pain ma.
then went back class, miss lee tell me 5mins break. diao.

PE : ran 2 rounds, hmm .. played soccer with the SEC2Cs people.

hmm .. after school went 215 find yg , then went 202 for lunch with yg, tiansong,jordan, lixiang and jemaine.

then .. went back sch, prepare for npcc .
hmm .. sprinted with sir wei li x.x
super tired eh.
wonder how he keep so fit de.

hmm . .thats all bahs
then went find kenny awhile ..
reach home around 9.30pm +

resting up now.
don feel too gd

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back from school ...

went to general office to chat with 'haha' . felt much better after some conversation. thx =)

been feeling very moody this few days. cant concentrate.

maths n eng : didnt go class, pei jestor , today he got some problem from the same teacher , zz ..

assembly : only attend like half of it, pei jestor lo .

then .. after school slack with tiansong and jordan . then otw back to school saw 'haha'
talk to her about some things.

thx to 'haha' felt much more better ler.

'haha' say if i still feel moody or upset can go find 'haha'
so .. talk and talk ,
broke down =.=

i guess its so bahs .. hmm nvm

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just back from school , kinda tired. slack with tiansong and jordan, played bball with them, A B C i think .

today kinda sux la whole day, wtf .. totally no mood to study already.
fuck up SEC4 life . cant take it anymore, cb ...

ENG : totally no mood, pervious incident things, stress.

chi : did test, but then never do, write name class date only, only did like half of the paper,
the rest 'ti kam' de .

maths : never do anything also, kinda sux, ran out of class =.=

recess : eat with weihong , tiansong and some friend ? .
lended elaine my tie.

then .. no more bahs, kinda fking fed up tis few days, totally no mood.
almost lost temper with ms tan today .
knn =.= _l_

after school, went opposite buy thing with weihong, then slack with jemaine,lixiang, felicia i think,tiansong and jordan, hmm .. kinda disappointed in me ,
then .. went 215 with kit and hakim.

saw mdm yau when on the way back, knn =.= .
but then she very good to me eh, she just say a few things then go .

then went back school , slack with kit, played bball with jordan and tiansong and 2 of their friends,

around 6.30 + went home with phy ,xiao wei and 1 of their friend,
amy sis sms me say she beside me, then she reply me APRIL FOOL o.o

yea. i admit, I DO SMOKE,

and im doing fine with my studies,

unless u don trust me,

its up to u,

i been your friend for like 7yrs,

why cant u just trust me,

i know u disappointed in me,

and i know its not good for me,

but i can cope okay ?

thx for knocking some sense into me,

but i can handle it ok .

thx for being there when im in need,